perpetual traveller

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem

I like the idea of Hadithuna and it has some good features, WP-based is different than Blogger n maybe a little bit better (not sure yet). However, lately I have been experiencing some problems – couldn’t log in from school because it said cookies had to be enabled, there was some weird glitch that messed up the page sometimes  when I tried to post an embedded video, the spell-check thing is kind of irritating, and now… for some reason the drop-down menu for admin options is all flashy (flickering) and I can’t select the option I want (>_< ) Also, it seems I cannot directly edit the template html code – but maybe I just haven’t found the option for that yet (I’m assuming it must be somewhere.)

So… kind of not impressed. Considering I never had any problems with Blogger.

Actually, the flickering issue might be a browser/computer/something else problem because it seems to be happening on another webpage too (I was checking into Muxlim.com ’s blog option ;p) So….. not sure what to do! Stick w Hadithuna or, move back to Blogger w a new page… or re-vamp the old one, or try going direct to WordPress (-_- ?)

Right now I’m at a point in my life where everything seems confusing and choice-full. What to study. Who to marry. Where to blog. What to do. Where to work. Even I keep hashing and rehashing the whole taking-on-an-”muslim”(ie arabic)-name bit.  Its already been more than three years since I came into Islam… so, kind of a delayed reaction it seems. Like, if I was going to do it I should have done it awhile ago.

I know its not necessary for one to change their name unless it has a bad meaning. My name’s meaning is… maybe kind of having “shirk”-ish roots, so I am not sure if it is an obligation on me to change it or not? Like, where the line is drawn. On one hand, I want to emphasize the fact to my family and pre-Islam friends that Islam is not something foreign. Also, I *was* given the name Aaminah a long time ago… which I am called by some people… but… maybe I just don’t feel connected to that name.

Lately I was thinking of the name “Zulaykha,” the wife of the Aziz from the story of Yusuf alayhi asalaam. I decided if I was going to take on a name I wanted one that everytime I heard it that it would be a reminder to me. The story of Zulaykha is so interesting… there is a very beautiful commentary about her in the Tafseer of Yusuf Ali’s translation of the Qur’an,… insha’Allah I will try to post it when I go back home. Many people are judgemental about her, but she is just human like the rest of us… she slipped and fell victim to her passions, her love for Yusuf alayhi asalaam. And even though she erred and made some big mistakes, in the end she stands up and admits the truth to everyone – this is not an easy thing to do. Can you imagine being in her position? She was in a high status, people gossiping about her for having tried to seduce her servant, being rejected by the object of her affection… dealing with the social and emotional aftermath of the whole incident. Then, standing in front of the king and everyone, and admitting the truth of her mistakes.

There is a lot of other stuff on my mind I wanted to write about, but insha’Allah I will post it later ~ Fi aman Allah.

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